APRIL BOYFRIEND

i need a newness.
i need an end to this dreaming
i need an end to the endless fucking, all of this sucking, all of this putting up and putting you down and looking around for the next one who i can settle on, suck on, rock on, rambam
mishnah
i need the companion, i need the boyfriend, i need the love
i want that body, long and sweet, smelling of sleep and milk and earth and sweat so naked beside mine
i need the one who is there most of the time, if not all, who can give me some of this strength, when i have none
i need him to make eggs for me
i need him to share coffee
i need his stick dick inside me
i need to make him cum
i want to wash his floors
knit him hats and hold him when he is down
i want to go down, and lick
his balls with the base of tongue
and then about a child or too and
run the water outside in the backyard
while he plants bulbs in the backyard,
and we have barbecues in the backyard
and are so happy and then real hard
he fucks me deep in the backyard
and showers all his seed on me
and i need this
i need that boyfriend
i need him true
i need him certain like the lord our god
i need him till i'm blue
but since he's not here
i'll learn solitude
and at ten past five, with the knock on the door
i'll settle for you