if i am a saint then i don't now what i'll
be the patron saint for, cause every
morning i wake up with a new belief
and a new unbelief and a new
submission and a new refusal
and i think i still believe in jesus though
i couldn't tell you who he is
and i still believe the world
is good and full of purpose
but i've got to reach deep down to find it
and i don't know why this life is filled
with exasperation
or why in masturbation i keep
seeing my best friend
and we are twisting and we are
kissing, then we're rising
then past orgasming i
am waking up alone