baptism ii

i will light the blue candle
and submerge in the green water
and in the gold light
baptize myself again to
you
once, all golden and light
you came down to me in the river
jordan
in the form of a dove
love proclaimed you its
eternal son and let me in
on the bargain too
and so i come back to you
inspite of all things
i don't wait not to be bitter
i just expect to be made human
as you came to make me long
ago