well... oh, hell
let's see
i am much healthier than i was yesterday
and i am not as frightened as i used to be
i am not as angry as i used to be
i don't know if i'm as fragile as i was
i am frightened of depression
and the blackbirds again
and i'm still scared of being scared
so in the end i am a little
very little better off than i
was before
but that bit's better
its so much better