whether it helps or not, this is
a well earned nihilism
and i know there is no reason to
believe any of the promises
made here
in the cold land
made by all these cold men
and, what is more
half the vows, half the doors
opened to reveal their prizes just show me
that what i wanted is worthless
how if i open my eyes
to the opening of the eye
how if i see the sight
see the light?
and instead of the promise of
live in the moment of
your love?