Tuesday, June 30, 2009



you can never be baptized too much
you can never renew and a re-know
too often
like a dolphin, leap in and out of
these holy waters
sons and daughters of fear
logic and reason
only mimick what we do here
secret handshakes. half mad
two steps, through the veil
in superstition
a mission to wish away all
that is real
in chat and propaganda
these things will never heal
only love will do
only the silence will do
only the water will do
only the water will do

Saturday, June 27, 2009



all praise for the god of summer
for the lord of growing, thriving,
sweating living
all hail for the singing and the dancing
and the loving
all hail for the green beauty and
the sweltering sun where all things
grow in sauna sundays
all praise for the mondays where
apollo drives us inside to drink
with bacchus and love with venus
all hail for the thrill on my
face when you're touching me
when i'm inside you

Thursday, June 25, 2009



ON THE BIRTH OF WILD THINGS

iii


from the wall the mossy head of John the Baptist
half pan and three fourths devil leers down at me and
says, you ought to know by now there is no safety in love
i was born when Herod chopped off my head
that was the death of a wild thing
and with tendrils like rings and roots like
claws my body went down and down, twisting through the earth
and i picked my head up and laughed
you better laugh too
when Salome's axe comes for you
and this is the kiss of wild things
a fire on your face
and this is the love of wild things
a burning embrace
and this is the baptism of wild things
wind and fire
and this is the birth of wild things
and you are the wild thing whenever you let
my arms, like corded wood seize you
and dunk you and dunk you
until drunk with the jordan you gasp and reel
and start over again, laughing with beginning
this is repentance
this is all it ever was

Wednesday, June 24, 2009



ON THE BIRTH OF WILD THINGS ii

in the place where noes turn into yeses
i love you
in the place where they become the caresses
of miracle
i love you
in the hill country--get thee up
where he is born--with a high voice
kicking and screaming
proclaiming, dreaming
where was born that ancient thing
where from the mother whirlwind is
born the woodland King,
the desert king
the wooded king
this is the way he comes to world
after whirring away in a chariot of flame
and in the fire of this wholly joyous
desire
i declare
i love you
at the river jordan
where he pours
new saving for a newer lord
i love you wildly
i love you with his roaring voice
and his crazy fire
i adore you
i implore you
i... am in awe of you
i love you



PORNO

You… the way you looked
you were in this zone, in this other place like
when religious people go into ecstasy
It was like you and me didn’t care
who was there
We were so into each other
into the moment
And it was scary--The way I felt
The way you looked
like you were on the edge of something
Something we might not come back from
Something folks have to watch at two
in the morning while their lovers sleep
because it is secret
everytime we fuck it is a dance with death
and we leave the world of daylight
even fucking in daylight
Don’t... have anything to say about it
Don't know what to make of it
It defies straight judgment
feel it deep in you
shaking you
ass deep in you
taking you
it goes past all morals...
But then… I think that’s really most things.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

ON THE BIRTH OF WILD THINGS



Today in the sauce thick heat you gave birth,
though
you were ancient past bearing, a
withered land
with no water, all rocks and stones
and you were cousin of the Virgin
twice virgined over, three times as old
you brought into this earth the prophet
all covered in moss
all wild eyed and full of locust
and honey
and his lungs screamed prepare the way
and his foot thumped out to herald
resurrection
and out of the protection of that
which once was
barren, all covered in vines and
tendrils he came
the Greenest of Men, who carried
his own head in his hands
and in his mouth, the sword of
his own destruction
and when you see him at the Jordan
then he is our destruction
when you see him calling you into
the water
then he is your induction to the
little death
the fire death and the water death
and the death of all that held you
and when he comes, calling,
behold the Lamb
then you know he is the Wild Thing
and you are the Wild Thing
and what he brings in his camel
hair coat
is the end of all stale safety

Sunday, June 21, 2009



deep inside i know you will always return to me...

in the blankets and sheets between
night and morning
where timelessness floats we stripped
and your body, with all its black hairs
was on top of me and beside me and all
over
how do you know?
and what can you say?

you ought to know by now there is no safety in love

and the bliss of your mouth bringing me
up to heaven
no virgin could know this
and there are no harps or clouds
-naw-

the sweetest release is the admission of love


constant thumping
there is always someone's bass,
with a gentle violence inserting
itself in these walls
and in my brain
and someone is always cutting his lawn
two or three someones
and hell, why don't people stay inside
an it does not seem like people will
become quiet anytime soon


on solstice morning there is no
need to worry and for the first
time in thirty years
i realize mindfulness is not
restlessness
peace is peace
and i am not the master of the whole world
you said to me
a long, long time
ago, on a hill, far away
do not worry, be like a flower
be like a bird
and i never heard you
until this slightly drunken
time the first day of summer

Saturday, June 20, 2009



The sweetest release is the admission of love...


how do i write the song of you?
poetry is just telling the truth in rhythm
with a little bit of rhyme
and the truth is this is not about you
its more about me and how i'm afraid
that i will say
that i have thrown my love away
on a stone, once again
and having been alone, so long, i made you
more, i wanted more
than you could ever give
there is some fantasy that your kiss, your light
holds some sort of life and the conclusion
of this chapter in found in your embrace
that's the new book
your kiss is the author
your body prints it out upon my flesh
or so i dream
and all these dreams, all these visions
the incubus fushion of you into my skin
and then...
it was all a fantasy
i am so afraid once again in romantic redundancy
i plunged into an empty pool
but most of all
i am in love.

Thursday, June 18, 2009



TRANSUBSTANTIATION

Now on this table
The sunlight in every cranny of the bread
Shining on the juice, the blood of grapes
The blood of God
Heaven is joined to earth
Every time
The wine was poured
In chalices
or seed spilled forth
In sighs from longing cocks
There was the incarnation

Here is the miracle:
That when there are eyes to see it
When what slept inside awakens
Then he walks across the
Sinai in a pillar of cloud
Then she marches with her trumpets
In a bolt of fire
Then the sharpest desire that licks the dormant
Body
Then the blood
And then the body
And the bread
The book you read
The last thing you fed on
Has gone
Through its transubstantiation

Tuesday, June 16, 2009





I don't feel all fevered and passionate like i did
Just sort of sedated
Having admitted my love I'm okay with
it not working out
not even the temptation to wish I could love
someone else.
I try to.
I try to wish for someone else cause
i can't remember your face,
it turns into someone else's, all the lines
of it fall out and break
like some Picasso lover
I can't get your laugh or your voice
right anymore.
no pictures of you, just this faulty
grasping memory
this palsied claw of the mind and it seems
like I don't love you, am quite over you
So, why when I see a picture of Phoenix
Arizona, or any thread that leads to
you am i instantly with you, feeling
the touch of your hand,
the bread heat scent of your breath
and why do i know, if i have forgotten you
if i am over you
the solidity of your lanky frame
why does the Oklahoma accent whisper in my head
Never ever did I carry a man so fully in my vitals.
When I tell myself that this has very little chance
of working
that I should put it all away
my self is very quiet
and she just shakes her head and chuckling
whispers
"No."

So that is where I am right now.

Saturday, June 13, 2009



Deep inside I know you will always return to me....


i think i denied this for sometime
i know that your eyes
supplied
the music and the melody
for me
your hands, the curve of your back
nothing lacking
how i miss you
think about you
what about you?

i say it now

and hide it later
i guess it's time to view
the situation
looking in the mirror
of your eyes
there's no need to lie
i am much in love with you

Thursday, June 11, 2009

i knew i wanted to know you
i knew i wanted to see you
hanging about, spouting off like
some little brother
and then, after you had not shaved
after the touch of your hand
and the look in your eye
after you apologized
i find myself wanting to
fuck you...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009




the day i long for is the day when i reach
up to hold your waist in these two hands
run up my hands over the the light black
hairs of your
lovely creamy chest

... i guess its time for me to admit
that i can totally get down with
the thought of you
between my legs...

and will there ever be a day
when i see you standing
naked in my kitchen
washing off your body after our love?

... i guess its time for me to admit
that i can totally get down with
the thought of you
between my legs...

after you have risen from my bed
deep inside i always knew
i'd want you like honey
and syrup
like chocolate and oranges
filling me
and dripping
from my mouth...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009



... i guess its time for me to admit
that i can totally get down with
the thought of you
between my legs...

deep inside i always knew
i'd want you like honey
and syrup
like chocolate and oranges
filling me
and dripping
from my mouth...

Saturday, June 6, 2009




we emerge out of fiery light,
and into this we will always
return
you and i,
we are the keys that open
the door to our
memory of heaven

Friday, June 5, 2009




when the night in truth sets in there
is a certain time beyond time when not
much matters
and the darkness here and there pierced
with a white star,
now with the dime sized white moon
is lit with orange and purpled by street
lights
now in this wild time
when all the old rules go
we are floating on something new and nightly
and the troubles baked into us by day don't matter
and the freedom of tomorrow carries you
and me on this bed
on this car of hope and desire--and never was
there true desire without hope--
we are fired to love and give and take and love
and make our toes curl
and here are you
with the most earthly scents of your deepest places
upon me, holding you
caressing you
in tender fingers like the rails of infant cradles
able to to keep my baby from
dropping out tonight

Thursday, June 4, 2009




This is how it should always be
When you are kissing me
Every night it comes to me this perfect
Fantasy of me and you an us
Your mouth on me
Hands holding me
A light little prison
A safety belt to keep me soul
From flying
You stay with me
In me
And you are certain
This is the way it will always be
Even past morning

Wednesday, June 3, 2009




i think that i'm in love wih you
i think that i could wrap my legs
around you
i think i would build at least
a piece
of my world around you
when you sleep i will dance around you
when you're awake move above you
this is the twenty-five minute
giving of myself to you
this is the two hour marriage of
my body to you
open to you
under and all above you
almost in love you

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

in praise of the shabby body
the plump bottom
the tummy
in praise of the full thight
the lean and hungry chest
the scars from back screws
in praise of the wild bush
and one eye a little smaller
than the other
and all the other
things that have not been air brushed
i praise the smoker, the drinker
the one who refuses to exercise
i praise the heavy balls
the hitherto fat roll, the legs too short
that other type is too busy
taking its clothes off snapshotting
in the mirror to ever take his
clothes off for you
or ever put himself in you
or anyone else
so all praise for anyone else
who bows to imperfection with
the balding dome
i praise the wrinkle about the eye
i praise all of this beauty
which is real beauty
and real booty




i believe that the cure for all our ills
is romance
i believe that the true belief
in impossibility is all that will
save us from mendacity
down the other roads we'll only be
an audience
half contented sitting in a studio, in a chair
on a couch substituting a studio
and be so engaged in the lives of others
we will not have started our own
though contrary to what i know
and only something i've
experience in half dreams
and fantasies
in poems that are prophecies
i believe in the dark gold lover
the chocolate and brandy lover
i believe there is someone not only
who will take me away, lift up this
body made heavy by years,
by small visions, by doughnuts and
cigarettes
and i believe that by that same power
i could lift him too
could lift you
out of this mendacity

Monday, June 1, 2009

FUCKER

you came as this beautiful
young stripper who could charge
anything for your favors
but all you charged me was love
coming through looping labrynthine
paths to the dusky room where i stayed
straying in and coming out of your clothes
planting your hands on me
me planting my hands on you
those hips,
sucking the life from you
until your head arched back and you shot
out salty goodness
good like the first waters of
the new earth
from whence all life came



ii



when next you came as a heavy
silly man
in multi colored glasses,
shambling,
a mess,
i hardly knew you
but for the taste of your cock
and i slithered over it
again and again
let myself be pinned
under the bigness of your body
till we were caught in your room
like birds in a thicket
like foxes in a hen house
by your laughing friends

you started in shock
but i caressed your balding head
and your furry ass
and said
peace,
be still

iii



the last time you were this thug
ass motherfucker whose daddy lived downstairs
in the other apartment
of our designer crackhouse
and though you were younger
you were bigger
big like a mountain
colored like lemon and the sun
like the sour lemony taste between your
thighs
like the tang and scent in my nose
and as we went at it
i said lie close
so close to the floor
there's a glass wall they can see through...

there is always a glass wall
they see through




've returned. i have no time for half
hearted passion
or measured lust
this is ihe time to open hands and arms
and love and legs to everything
the only way to be consumed
and to be melted is to be melted
by everything
there is nothing more than the anticipation
of you
there is nothing more than the view of your
body and holding your flesh to my
body and the only thing i have spent volumes
writing, i have spent hours and days
hoping for is this
electric
romance.