t r i b u t e

don't you dare apologize
no not ever
you were just looking for a place to hide
you were just trying to get away from the madness,
hide from the demons, turn off
get a break
end the endless wakefulness and get some rest
i know i live in this world too

life and nerves and god and madness
sadness, mice scrambling in the walls,
lovers leaving, demons shouting down the hall
call us to be soldiers, make a frontline
of the beds we sleep in
you didn't ask for this
neither did i
you had to get out, you had to crawl out
scratch and claw your way out work the magic to shrink
and run or slink or jump your way out
and god i get it
got it?

so don't you dare apologize for getting off this ride
when you turned yourself off
turned off of this ride to plunge into so called darkness
i believe that--no
NO! i KNOW that in the end,
in the place where everything is joined
together and every precious thing that was ever lost is found i will meet you
when you took your own way, weeping maybe, out of this starkness
who knows what blazing light was there to greet you